Oh, sweet baby girl who is rolling and kicking me today, what do I need to tell you that is so important? What cannot wait?
You are 33 weeks along right now. That means you'll be full term in a month and born in about 7 weeks. You are bigger than you've ever been and your arms reach down to my bladder while your feet kick me up in my ribs. You wake up when I drink ice water and sometimes when Dad plays loud music. You are the light of my life already. I sing to you: You are my Sunshine, pop songs, whatever is in my head. I want you to know my voice and know I am signing just for you. You are about to become my most beloved. I cannot wait to look down and see if you have hair or a bald head. Will your eyes be blue like mine or will they be the golden, green and brown of your Daddy's? I cannot wait to see your fingers and toes and look at your tiny ears.
You are stronger now than you have ever been. Your legs can kick with a force that bounces my arms if they are resting on my belly. You can head-butt me in the bladder and make me have to pee. You can shimmy your little butt and my whole middle moves in waves. I love looking at you move. I feel terrible saying this but when I was first pregnant, I was worried that I wouldn't want to feel you move. I imagined that it would scare me and feel like an alien invasion. I was so wrong. Your movements are my favorite part of pregnancy. I call Dad over every day to feel you because I want to share the magic of it with him.
You are loved more than you can know. I hope that you will feel my love for you the way that I feel your Grandma's love for me. I hope you are always cloaked in the confidence that comes with knowing you are protected. I hope that when the world reveals its imperfections and makes you scared and frustrated you can come back to me and find balance. My love will be there always, even when you are grown up, even when I am not there to hug you.
You are the greatest gift I could ever give to your Daddy. He has wanted to be a Dad for even longer than I have wanted to be a Mom. He never had a Dad at home and he is going to do everything he can to be the best Dad in the world. He will work so hard to give you the things you need and he will work even harder to show you his love. Just by coming into this world, you are making it a better and happier place for him.
Today, you are the perfect dream of a baby in my belly. You are the promise of everything good and sweet in this world. You don't have to live up to any expectations because you already surpass everything I could ever want.
I love you.
